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Wow..i have not updated in a really long time. lol
So my progress Report came today and i am actually pretty happy about it.
I got an "A" in algebra which i never thought i could.
and A in intro word proccessing..obviously... im so ahead of that class.
Then everyone other one is a B or B+ and i know i got like a c+ in global issues which i can raise that up. so yes yes...
Last night was really fun hanging out with my girls megan shipp, nicole fujita, alexis noel && ashley larsen. it was great. it was like we were all on drugs. i went streeking last night in my backyard and it was so much fun! i was running around my house with my pants down...sooo much fun! thats me...a daredeviil! lol
well..comment if you please of what you think and if you were there, if you had fun! ttyl
so good to comment again
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Hey guys. I haven't updated in a long time. Well, school is now in section. which im happy about. everything is going good so far with justin and I. and school i guess is good so far. just, don't like my algebra class or teacher :/
Well, Tomorrow is "Freshman Friday". wonder what my senior sister has planned for me with her plans. but i really don't care. well, i g2g. homework and getting ready for the first JV football game! can't wait until varsity.
Well, Comment.
Love ya all
Litsa
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This is what i really hate. I really don't know what some ppl have against me but someone told somone else ((no names)) that i was talking shit about them...hhmmmm thats kinda weird how i never talked to them this summer and i'm not even friends with them. i swear. i really hate this. but w/e. im just going to let it go, even though his/her cousin comment me on myspace saying shit. but w.e im seriously done with all this damn drama that makes no sence.
im so sick and tierd of this
Nikolitsa
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Hey Everyone! No one is really updating so i just decided just so say hello.
I hope everyone is excited for school to start! Finally going to be able to be treated like adults and not five year olds. Im so excited about that.
FOR EVERYONE THAT IS GOING TO THURSTON -- Just to let everyone know, and i hope that everyone can support me on this, i'm running for Class president and i would love nothing more then to get this. But, it is up to the freshman class so vote who will be the president. So, if you guys will vote for me, i will be so very happen and really appriciate it. So, if i have your vote, comment and tell me. or just IM me at irresisitble4jay or E-mail me at anytime at Nicole@hilaryduff.zzn.com Thanks you guys!
muahh.
Love ya'll
Litsa
Laguna fans...Don't you love my layout!
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Hey people.
This day was really weird. last night, larsen spended the night which was really fun. We were up all night playing my sex card game. lol it was fun. then my sister came home around 6 and took me her larsen and tara out for breakfast. tara hade a party the night before so they had a lot of lefted over smirnoff so me and larsen each had one which was good. and this was around 7 something in the morning guys. it was crazy. so them when we got home, we went to sleep and i woke up like around 12.. and just sat there thinking. wow what is new. and went on the computer. i felt so sick becuae after larsen lefted, i had more alcohol and shit. it was crazy. but fun. So sunday, larsen and I are going to michian adventures which should be fun. im excited.well, talking to cody online and don't want to keep him waiting. i love ya guys.
muahh
Goodnight**
Litsa
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[28 Jul 2005|10:24pm] |
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I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! i hate summer. i just want to go back to school and get everything back to normal. i love school so much and i don't even care what ppl say about that. im so sick of summmers always being full of drama. i have been over larsen's house like every single fucking day and that was the only thing i really enjoyed. she is my partner in crime...and more..lol! i love you lar lar. anyway. well sunday is the warped tour, so hopefully that will be fun. 27 more days bitches!
Litsa**
love ya all ♥
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If u guys can all do me a favor and give me pictures of you guys and all of our friends. if u have a photobucket and get some from there and comment on this or if u guys want to e-mail me with some pictures i would really appriciate it.
Larsen-The pictures of me, you, and jay. if i could get htose some how and stuff that would really be great
my e-mail is nicole@hilaryduff.zzn.com
thanks
Nikolitsa
love ya'll ♥
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Hey gorgeous..
Yesterday was a lof of fun!!! Justin, myself,alex,and jason went to the movies to go see bad news bears ((haha i rememeber it!!)). it was really funn. playing hte games and me and justin snuck in to see hustle and flow. it was good the part that we seen. the part where the guy is rapping and shit. but it was good. then, we all went to alex's house and did stuff there...lol. we all had a really good time and i finally seen justin after a week. it was so hard and it sucked ass. but its all good now.
well comment
Nikolitsa
love ya'll
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Hey gorgeous's!!!
I'm so happy...i finally seen larsen since she lefted for camp!!! I'm really happy that friday, Justin and I and Alex and Jason are going on a double date. but i think justin's cousin and her bf are coming and her friend and her bf are coming to!! lol wow so confusing. god i miss him so damn much.
but if u guys want to go see some pictures of greece, go to myspace
and my e-mail is nicole@hilaryduff.zzn.com
well leave some <3
McAllister and Larsen....So glad that u guys are back!!
i miss u both
Nikolitsa
<3 u jay
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Hey Guys. I really hate this so much!
Everyone left..
justin chad colin-upnorth
Larsen-camp
alex nicole-ohio
this just makes me feel so damn loved....lol
but this whole time, we are panting the house. so, this is just going to be great. i miss everyone already. uhh.. well ttyl
love ya'll,
nikolitsa
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Hey,
I hope you guys enjoyed the pictures of greece that i shared. isn't it beautiful?!
Yesterday i went out to eat and the mall with larsen and we went to go see Dark Water--i didn't like it. but when we got to the theater, we decided to ask the guys to come so justin and chad got rides and came with us. eventhough they were 20minutes late after the move started, but they got in free so its okay. it was funn. but my favorite part was me and larsen tried on clothes..lol larsen i love that skirt! i even told me mom about it..lol. yeah but im excited for tomorrow because its mine and justin's 3 month anniversary!!! very excited
well, plz comment
love ya'll
Nikolitsa
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Hey everyone. plz do this and make it a comment for me to look at!!love ya'll
[] I am bisexual or homosexual. more like bi-curious
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[] I've run away from home
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[] I am for Bush.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.. sometimes
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I own an iPod or MP3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[x] I am a sports fanatic
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[] I love Spam.
[x] I cook well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[] I have a job
[] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[] I smoke a pack a day.
[] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[x] I've gotten lost in my own city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[] I Had a serious Surgery
[] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[]Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been to a casino
[] Been skydiving
[] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist.
[x] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle.=
[] Gotten stitches
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Kissed a member of the same sex.
[x] Crashed into a friend's car
[] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[] Been fired
[] Stole something from your job
[] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe
[] Been married
[] Gotten divorced
[] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying
[] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[] Been snowboarding
[] Been Skiing
[] Met someone in person from the internet
[x] Been to a motocross show
[] Lost a child
[] Gone to college
[] Graduated college
[] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x] Given a lapdance
[x] Had someone cheat on you
Love ya'll
don't forget to do this yourself and put it as a comment
Nikolitsa
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This is something that really is bugging me. It really seems like everyone is falling apart. and its really upsetting. People are saying that other people are ditching everyone for someone or, some stuff like that. and i just wanted to tell everyone that if u feel that way, just please say something, instead of holding it in a making it a bigger deall. and if u say something, maybe that would help. and i know i would want to know if i was doing something this. and just be informed then having that person being a bitch and just talking about me/or anyone else. because that is just baby like. So, please, if something is bugging you, just tell that person/ppl. because you are just making it worse. and if you are willing to loose a friend, then go right ahead.
Now dayz, there is only a couple of ppl i can trust, and that is really upsetting. but, its good to know who i can/can't trust. instead of telling people who wil tell other ppl, or won't listen, or both. and a couple of those ppl are the crew. and ppl can say all the shit they want about the crew but really, you only know the crew, if u are part of the crew. we talk to each other more then really anyone else. you may get affended about it, but really, don't take it personally. i know there is one person in there who i tell everything, and that is alex. Alex and I, i tell her everything. and me and her have so much in common with relationships with friends, and also the ppl who we love, which is justin and jason. and ppl get affended by what i tell them. but when i tell her, i kno that she will feel the same way, and i thank her from the bottom of my heart. And also larso. you have been there for me more then anyone has, with everything. yes, other ppl might have been there for somethings, but you are the person who i have an absolute blast with, and i thank you from the bottom of my heart also. but a crew is a crew, and we stick together through thick and thin. and if u have a problem with any of this, tell us/me to our/my face, and we will talk. but if u deal with one of us, you get to look at 7 other ppl. because, there will always be 8 in the crew. (( nicole F, alex c, ashley l, nikolitsa, justin t, jason e, chad j, and colin c.)) SRF Crew!!!
----this is not a threat, but the truth. and im just getting this out to everyone who think that its okay to talk about anyone, because u would be suprised. and when don't expect it, the ppl who u thought you could trust, is just a bundle of bull shit, period. no question to it.
please comment about this.
Nikolitsa
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Hey everyone. So, last night i spended the night over larsens, again. omg i was with her for more then 48 hours. But, its all good because i wasn't the only one who spended the night...lol. Larsen i think you know, but im pretty sure everyone knows who im talking about. but we had lots of funn yesteday at milan, at the race track. it was so funny and i enjoyed being with my best friend and justin(( best friends brother..lol)). i went home today at like 11am and i went streght to sleep and i woke up at 5:30 because my sis((angela)) woke me up...uhh. so i watched spiderman 2. and then i decided just to go online. ( And this is where we *~*kiss*~* )
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Hey everyone.
Today i know is not my day, or for anyone else for that. Everyone i talked to is like omg this is not a good day or anything. so many ppl getting into arguments and everything. its crazy. Today, i decided just to stay home, god i haven't even stepped outside my house at all. i just want to stay home, gather up on a couple things and talked to a couple ppl and then update this. but, really no one ever comments so i really don't even see the fucking point. it just kind pisses me off how i always comment on everyone's but i just get shit from everyone. sry if i seem really mean but im just so upset with a lot of ppl and everything. just in general. ppl are starting to get this screen name so i guess if u want to be added, just give me a beeep. everything is changing and im really hating it. im starting to change my mind about moving. i kinda am starting to want to.
yesterday, me and larsen went up to capitol, and we hung out with tj and deaon. omg deaon did not move. but i'm still his best friends ou of girls so its all gummy bears! we went over to tj's then we went home around 8:30 and they walked us there. is was fun.well, after taco bell was funn. but im not going to get into with what happen at jaco bell. some bull shit for sure.
But im going to tt everyone later.
depating if i still am going to even bother updating anymore.
help me hang my mind.
love ya bitches
+the crew!!
Nikolitsa
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Girls: turned ON or OFF when a guy...
dresses like a thug: depends who
dresses like a surfer bum: on
dresses like a prep: if he is metrosexual....hell yes! lol
dresses in all black: maybe
doesn't care what he wears: on
sings: hell yes
plays a musical instrument: on
is skinnier than you: don't matter
is bigger than you: don't matter
is shorter than you: both
is taller than you: on
has straight teeth: on.
wears braces: don't matter
has chapped lips: off
has green eyes: on
has blue eyes: both
has brown eyes: both
has long hair: on
has shaved: on
drinks alcohol: not too much, but at parties.
smokes cigarettes: hope not
smokes pot: off.
wears glasses: on!!!
has brown hair: on
has black hair: on
has red hair: HELL YES!! Red heads are the hottest guys ever!!!
is tan: ON
works out: ON
smiles more than not: on
calls you just to say hi: on
lets you know he was thinking about you: on
smacks your butt: w.e
compliments you: on..always good to know you are pleased
shaves his legs: off
facial hair: on
has sideburns: off
wears jewelry: on
has bigger feet than you: on
has smaller feet than you: off
wears cologne: on
smiles when you walk into the room: on
calls you pet names: on
has blue hair: on
has blonde hair: on
dances: on
can make you laugh at any given moment: on
is spontaneous: on
doesnt care what a lot of people think: on
likes rock music: Fuck yes
has lip piercing: on
tattoos: ON
Skates: on.
Football: on
shows off: off
protective: off
controlling: off
hold your hand often: on
strong (in his attitude): off
never stops talking about you: as long as not apsecive...thats creepy
good with kids: oh yes
loyal: on
laid back: on
doesn't party alot:on
christian: hopefully greek or me
perverted: off, but just not prued..plz not prued or something is going to change..loljp
Nikolitsa
commment plzzzzzzzz
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since we are all on this truth stick thing, im going to have my own!! this is going to be very interesting.
Please tell me what are my good and bad qualities that i have.
Please tell me what you think about me.
Please tell me what kind of a friend i am to you guys.
Please tell me what i need to work on.
Please tell me what you ap. love about me.((if there is ne thing))
Don't be shy to tell me, i won't get mad, just take it into an account.
Nikolitsa
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[06 Jul 2005|12:41pm] |
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omg, im so happy i can finally update everything now. my interenet has been down for a couple of days now and i got it back yesterday but yesterday i wasn't home at all. First, i went to the palace of aurbon hills to go watch the detriot shock (WNBA) with stewy, sherenda,kelvin, lisa, voula(my sis) and justin. so that was fun. and then it got done around 10:30 so me, my sis, lisa, and justin went around a picked up the thunder sticks w.e. there called. and then we lefted. and then we got lost getting there and when we tried to leave. it was great. my sister was also driving who does not know her way aroud things. then we were going to go see a movie but no times around 11:30 :(
so, then we went out to eat then rented "Be cool" which was good. so..please comment
Niko~Litsa
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yeah, so i haven't been writing in here for a long time becuae i have been busy or just really not in the mood. yesterday, the day passed by so fast but i went to the recital. it was me larso nicole f. amanda chad and justin. it was fun. after that me nicole chad and justin went to this place to go eat and it was fun and all. came home around 11...how gay! then today againt he day passed by fast and went to recital and then just went home. so nothing really special. when i seen justin last night, omg he got so much taller and every time i go to hug him or something (( wink wink)) i have to be on my tippy toes. its so halarious. but i had a good time but today i was just not in a great mood and yeah, just got into a little argument with someone but im sure everything is okay and i really don't want to worry about it or talk about it. but yeah...i g2g so tt ya'll later
wish us luck tomorrow at recital!!! ♥
luv ya jay♥♥
Niko~Litsa
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Last night was so much fun...actually yesterday was fun. First i walked to McAllister's house after a guy was like following me in his car. and then i got to mcallisters and then we went to larsen's around 2 for the party. and then after the party and all that chad and justin came over at the party and then me justin and mcallister lefted. and then we went up to capitol to go watch jason and colin play baseball. good times. after the game ( they did awesome)me and mcallister walked back to her house while jason and justin went to jason's house to go get there stuff to spend the night over chad's. Then when we met up with them...after a while around 1:30am i guess me mcallister justin and then chad, but just lefted and jason went to crash larsens party again, just later. I seen a possom and then me and jason went to go see it up close and i scared the crap out of him...it was great. then me and jason just lefted together, just talking about a lot while mcallister and justin where all the way back of us and they were talking also. we were out for a pretty good time. but i got really upset how i only got a couple drinks of smirnoph (( we all had some)). after drinking that we came to beach dally (( on our way to larsen's)) and justin took the glass and threw it up in the air and hit the ground and it broke in pieces and a car was righ there....it was halarious...but suprising. then we went to mcallisters house but they had to leave because of mcallisters mom..but it was all good. then (( earlier my belt was stuck and couldn't get it out, so all the guys tried to get it but they couldn't, even dominic..lol))and then justin finally got it after it was like 5 in the morning(( and this was the second time it got stuck and the second time he got it)) and we ran and i got to see jason chad and justin...omg they were so hyper!! it was crazy. and then justin gave me his shirt and hat, and i gave him my belt and we both slepted with it. but this night was awesome. jason is not talking to mcallister for 3 dayz but now its 2...lol. how funny. but this night was awesome and what summer is all about. If you need to know anything (( wink wink)) then you know where to find me
Love ya'll
thanks to--chad//jusitn//jason//mcallister for a wonderful night!!!
Niko-litsa
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Yeah so today was good because i was hanging out with one of the coolest ppl i have ever met, my chick kathryn! we went to the mall with my mom to go buy a present and then we went to her house adn we chiled and we went for walked and stoked this one guy...lol. god it was so much fun. and then we came here around 9 o'clock and then so she is spending the night and we were on the phone with jason for like 3 hours. omg it was so halarious. he was telling us some corny jokes like what is the fishes favorite fruit--watermelon. we didn't get it at first but the water---melon.. hah good times. and another one but it was really weird about purple and a turtle and an elephant...yeah weird...lol. and then chad and justin came over here for a little bit around 11 o'clock so it was really fun to.so it is 4 in the morning and we did our toezies.and we are a little bit wasted and trying to recover....ask jason omg!!!! well comment and see ya ppl at dance tomorrow or today..w.e.
Niko~Litsa
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Today just got so much better!! Justin and Randy just came over my house just so justin could give me a kiss and tell me happy anniversary!!! it was the cutiest thing. and i have not seen him since friday and i just seen him so it was really good. well good night everyone! love ya'll
Niko~Litsa
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Today was so bad, and i hate it. Today i stayed home until i went to Alex's softball game which im so proud of her because she did wonderful!!! and got the game ball....rock on! It is mine and justins anniversary and we didn't even see eachother. and i hate that. the last time i seen him was Friday of last week, and everyone else seen him except me and i hate that so damn much! and i get so angry and more then i am already and im so sick of everything! uhhhhhhh! i hate my life so damn much sometimes. but w.e.
BYE!
Niko
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Today was not that really good of a day but the end turned out okay. i was suppose to go to Jason's and colin's baseball game and i my mom said i could go but then all of a sudden she wouldn't let me ne more! it was total shit. and i got so mad the whole day and everything would find a way to piss me off. but around 8:45pm, my mom took me to go get shoes for hip hop which i did. so i guess it was alright. but i have not eaten a big meal in such a long time. i don't even remember the last time i was full. i just hope tomorrow everything will be better since it is mine and justins 2 month anniversary! Rock on!!!!!!!!! im so excited. well ttyl buh bye
i was in my room for the whole day and never came out. more then 13 hours for sure. on the computer the whole damn time!
♥♥
Niko~Litsa
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Yesterday (Sunday) was nothing special at all. but what sunday is. Tomorrow is me and Justin's 2 month anniversary so im excited about that. And i think the crew should go somewhere and hang out because we have not done that yet. so i think that would be fun! im kinda getting excited even more abut thurston because my sister angela did my hair and she was like frecking out because she was like omg you look mature and so much more beautiful and she went down stairs screaming to my mom and is like nicole come down here. it was great but i never really seen what was the big deal. but im excited to get treated like an adult and all that good stuff. So, i just got out of the shower and getting ready so Ashley and I can go somewhere to get something. Sry, can't say anything! ttyl Love ya'll---mostly the crew
---Niko~Litsa--- ♥
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